…and i did today for the first time. I was happily walking to the shop with my friend Simona to get some sanitary towels, and then im looking at an isle of them and im holding a bottle of nestle ice tea citrus, and i picked a packet up and dropped the bottle. I crouched down and looked down to the floor and i saw nothing. So i paniced and keep touching the floor trying to find that bottle. Then i realise that my hearing was cutting off, and all i could hear was a very high pitched ringing in my ears, this has never happened to me before. Then my sight slowly started to regenerate back to it’s normal self and i saw the bottle and i grabbed it. I stood up and i felt so dizzy, i walked up to pay for the things i was holding. I put them down on the table and rested my head in my arms whilst leaning on the table. My friend Simona was sitting on the bench in the shop 3 metres away from me. I looked at her and showed her that i felt dizzy, she just stared at me. I payed one of the women at the counter and as soon as i picked the change up i just felt myself tumbling backwards towards the floor and everything flying out of my hands. I think i blanked out for about 5 seconds. The longest 5 seconds of my life.
There is an old saying that as you point one finger at others, three of your own fingers are pointing right back at you. Sometimes this is true, other times accusers are innocent of what they accuse others of. Me and my family have been involved in theft plenty of times now, and I’m pretty sick of people taking things that are not theirs, things that they didn’t have to work pretty hard for. Do you not feel guilty in any way? Because i would. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself knowing that I’m wearing someone else’s clothes, using someone else’s phone, watching movies from someone else’s TV. Those who do steal from other people are sick, especially if it’s people they know and people who trusted them with their things. That’s just disgusting, you should be ashamed!
I miss not needing to care about what i do. Being able to do anything you wish to do, and hardly even getting told off, they’d always say “she’s only little, she doesnt understand wrong and right.” I wish i understood wrong and right. I never seem to catch the hang of it, always not thinking about what im doing. Times like these, i just wanna sail away. Never come back. Feel free like a bird. But even birds end up getting shot down by hunters. The hunters name is Reality.
